today is my 7th month anniversary with Kevin. last month we celebrated it by watching a movie. This month, well i don't know. we'll figure something out soon.
being together for 7 months is awesome. we barely have fights. he's awesome. and this is awesome. you know that feeling when you feel like your relationship with your boyfriend is working out very well. i feel....awesome.
however being together for 7 months has made me know Kevin very well. I love him a lot. But of course there are things that i hate about him. so here i'm going to spill it out. 7 things i hate about Kevin :
1. I hate it when he stares. it will make me nervous and i will stop thinking about anything except him. it's like the universe is just an illusion. and he's the only thing that's real. i hate it because his stares makes me weak, it consumes me. i hate it when his stares can actually control me.
2. i hate it when he's always going to be in my options. like all of my consideration will also fall to him. for everything i do, i will think about him.
3. i hate the way that he's always right. we sometimes argue about things. and when our thoughts are different, he's always the one who's actually right. and i hate to admit it that i can't live without him telling me what is right.
4. i hate it when he sleeps first. he's not the type of person who will have a nap in the afternoon. so he will be very sleepy at night when we are skyping or just chatting. and me. i'm the one who likes naps in the afternoon. so i will be very fresh at night. i hate it that i can't push him to stay up and enjoy the night with me. i hate it because i will always let him sleep first.
5. i hate it when he cuts his hair. even make it bald. i hate it so much.
6. i hate the way he never shows what he means or what he wants or what he feels. sometimes if i don't ask, he won't say what he actually wants or means or feels. it frustrates me somehow because he's hard for me to read.
7. i hate it when he's not around. it's like i'm incomplete. it's weird when you always miss someone every time he's missing. i feel very abnormal.
it's only going to be fair if i also tell the good side of him. so here are the 7 things i love about him :
1. i love his smile. like there's a spark inside me every time he smiles. it haunts me every time he's not around. so i can endure the time when we're apart.
2. i love the way he drives. i love the way he looks at the streets. that careful stare.and i love it when he holds my hand after he moves the gear, and he will release it as soon as there's a turn. i love the way he steals stares when he drives. and i love to tell him to put his attention back to the streets.
3. i love the way he plays my fingers when he holds my hand. twisting it or just caressing it.
4. i love the way he speaks. some people say that he talks too fast. but hell i care. i love the way he puts a smile on my face because of that.
5. i love the way he eats. he eats a lot. and i love putting many foods on his plate and getting that 'really?' look from him but he will still eat it anyway.
6. i love the way he holds me like there's no tomorrow. he will hold me steady and tight and warm. i love that kind of feel when he doesn't want to let go.
7. i love his warmth. i'm a cold person. my normal temperature is quite low while his normal temperature is high. i love it when he makes me warm in a rainy day or in a cold room.
it's funny how love can bring a change to you. this is a major change in my life. i have never been better. never been so alive like this. this is me now. and i love this. i hope this can last long. because this is where i belong.
