hey it's been a while. school had started, so i was busy with tests and retests and assignments and projects and stuffs i didn't have time to write. and now i have time. i just got home from my friend's birthday party. the lights and loud music were crazy. but i felt good and had fun. a little fun at least in this busy week. 

i've spent my days, hours, minutes, and seconds on tests. and i am tired. i don't have any time left for anything else. almost. especially with Kevin. this week was crazy. i rarely chat with him. even at school we rarely meet. and now we won't have time for dating again, because i just took a course for university test. and it is scheduled for every Saturday. crazy huh? that way we won't have much time for each other. actually i'm not complaining. i'm fine with it really. it's just....i'm afraid. afraid that we will get further. and the feelings fade away. 

but now i think it's not like it. Kevin went to that party with me. he sat with me the whole time. even though i knew that he was very sleepy because he had slept for 2 hours only the other night. but he still responded the things that i said. he put his arms around me and i still felt those butterflies in me. it was like the first time again. he held my hand and caressed it. and i felt at peace. like there's forever in front of me to stay like that. i was wrong. feelings may fade away. but love don't. love won't fade away. it stays no matter what happen. the same as before.   now i know that i loved him yesterday the same as i love him today and i will love him tomorrow, and the next day after tomorrow, and the next days after that. i'm not afraid. i will fight for this love to stay true.